DREAMS DEATH LOVE LIVING
February 9, 2011. I don't mean this to be dramatic or morbid but if I died today could I say that I've lived well. And more importantly could I say that I've loved well. You see today is the anniversary of my Father's death. Enrico Mordini died on this day many years ago, too many to even begin to want to count. And yet the hardest day of my life is also a day of inspiration. It is a reminder every year to ask myself am I loving enough? Am I Creating more love in the world, not just following love but leading the way for love as a Love Warrior so to speak.
For it's not enough to think about it or follow the leader in love it is also our responsibility to make more love in the world. Today more than ever! And yes for me this is also tied up in wondering on this date every year "is my Papa proud of me and how I'm loving my life." Would he think that I respect love enough to salute it every day (like a sun salutation)? I have to believe he is proud of how valiant my attempts are regardless of the results which are sometimes messy and pretty often imperfect.
Funny thing about death is that the anniversary keeps coming back every year and reminds us that we don't know how long we have on this earth. So if you are thinking about getting started in loving more, creating more love, talking to love, talking about love then you should get started NOW. Yesterday, in meditation I decided to turn up the volume of love in my life, mostly because I don't feel like I'm yet "doing" enough to promote love. If I am a Love Ambassador (kind of like a Lululemon Ambassador) I have to get out there and keep the "brand image" of LOVE on the forefront. I have to take more responsibility. So I have pledged to write/blog/meditate about love for 21 days in a row (the length of time some scientists agree it takes to build a healthy habit).
Those of you who know me might think this will be an easy love assignment for me, but being actively pledged to love is not easy. It is simple. Just not easy. That's a long time to be in love with love and maintain a fruitful, spiritually mature dialogue. I say this because when my Father passed away the first person I was angry with was Love. I screamed and cried and shouted at love in my thoughts and out loud, because I couldn't understand why love would take away the first person on this planet who loved me (along with my Mama too). Love seemed so unfair to me then. So you see I haven't always been on good terms with Love, we've argued before and sometimes it's not been pretty.
But here I am, ready to really try to be the Love Ambassador that I want to be and that will make my Papa proud. You see Love is a skill. If you practice love, move like love, think love, behave in a loving way then we're bound to get good at it, just like anything else we practice (sadhana) repeatedly over time.
Eknath Easwaren says it like this “Love is a skill, a precious skill that can be learned. There are many other skills that are useful, even necessary, but in the end, nothing less than learning to love will satisfy us. The saints and mystics tell us that life has only one overriding purpose: to discover the source of infinite love and then to express this love in daily living. Without love, life is empty; without love, life is meaningless. The only purpose which can satisfy us completely, fulfill all our desires, and then make our life a gift to the whole world, is the gradual realization of the Self (LOVE) within, which throws open the gates of love. We cannot dream what depth and breadth of love we are capable of until we make the discovery that this divine spark lives in every creature.”
And today as I dream of love I am just so grateful to breath and welcome a way that promotes living the biggest love possible. So happy am I to have another chance to love more! It comes down to a simple choice (here I really should tell you that my "not so secret" ulterior motive is to build an army of Love Ambassadors worldwide) and I'd like to recruit each of you. The oath is easy. You just say to yourself and then to everyone: I CHOOSE LOVE.
May you love yourself more, love your day more, love your life more! Silvia